It’s not getting easier. But, it’s not getting worse.
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Never been one to channel my emotions into my art. With my current state of mind its hard not to, but at the same time, it’s not enough. The recurring theme of “sad monster” seems to be apt though. It will get better, but right now, I am lost in the void, and it seems like it won’t ever end.
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All I ever wanted to be was a better man and a better artist. I tried, and in some ways succeeded. Thank you for your support and love.
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The face I now wear.
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Some days you get sad. Some days you want to put a bullet through your own brain. Guess which today is?
085. Monsters
Back in December, I posted an drawing called “The Slasher“, an image I made for the Horror Movie a Day book, written by Brian Collins. This is my second piece for the book, the chapter illustration for “Monsters”. The book is still untitled and unscheduled, but it should be available sometime later this year. The little man being terrorized by Evil Groot and Venom-ish guy is the author himself. Had a tough time getting this piece going. I can sit with a post-it pad and doodle monsters and creatures all day long with zero problems, but I sit down to draw this finished piece, and I can’t figure out what a monster is. I don’t dislike it, but it was more trouble than I normally have.
Sidebar: was drawing this at my folks house last week and my dad glanced at it. He said, “that’s a lot of drawing”. I think that means he liked it.
Ok, PANIC!: Final Panic
Ok, PANIC! went on for two more years or so without my involvement. The curator decided to end it for whatever reasons and asked all the former contributors to do one final piece, Artist’s choice. I think I was drawing this Skeletor on my phone anyway. This was just when I had gotten my fancy phone and was experimenting a lot. This was also just before the biggest heartbreak of my life that still affects me to this day. Good times.
