Hawkgirl (30)

I’m old today. This is definitely not where I saw myself at the age of 30. 2008 has been a definite shit year for me, mostly of my own design. The comic thing is still a definite goal for me, but I work slowly. I want my projects to mean something personally to me. I no longer have the dreams of being a big superhero artist or writer. I would be perfectly content never having anything published by Marvel, DC, Dark Horse, Image, etc. I still love doodling and sketching all those big heroic characters, but the stories I need to tell need to be smaller, and need to be mine. The goal isn’t fame and fortune in a dying industry, but rather longevity. Something that can sit on a bookshelf, something long-form. Nothing I do will be amazing. My genetic make-up won’t allow me to be amazing, or allow anyone to tell me that it’s amazing. But whatever I do, will be a labor of love for me, and me alone. It’s taken me a very long time to come to that conclusion, and I’m ready to face it.

Meanwhile, as I enter into my third decade, fallen out with two people I used to consider my closest friends, I’m still struggling to not completely shut myself off from the outside world. The biggest regrets in my life for the past 10 years all happened in this past year, but, it also helped me focus I think. I hope that someday I’ll be able to reconcile with the people that I wronged, but that’ll take time, and despite being what I officially consider old, I don’t I’m yet mature enough to deal with that. After all, I still love comics.

Life Failure

Project Rooftop had a Superman Redesign contest about a month ago or so. Didn’t make the finalists, but got honorable mention. Drawn in Illustrator.


I like the Fantastic Four, in theory. The execution has never held up to what I expect it to be. An old friend of mine and I used to come up with FF stories to try to pitch Marvel (each rejected or ignored), and our ideas of the FF were more appealing than the actual comics. Anyhoo, I drew this a bunch of years ago. I was working at a television station, in Master Control. This was drawn entirely in ballpoint pen on the back of a timing rundown for a newscast.

Hell, boy

I keep forgetting to try and update this badboy. I was sorta lacking a good piece to pop up here. I mean, I have hundreds of drawings stocked away, I just don’t like any of ’em. The images I wanted to post up here, well, I’m not ready yet. They’re not ready yet. Soonish. But I figger, Hellboy II is out this week, and I’m excited, despite probably waiting a while to see it. I hate going to movies on opening weekend. All you fuckers and your conversations and cellphones and texting can all fuck off and die, motherfuckers. I didn’t pay 10 bucks to listen to your bitch-ass, I came to watching a fucking movie. And when I fucking yell at you to shut the fuck up, don’t act surprised, and don’t act like I’m interfering in your movie-going experience. Proper public etiquette and four years of working at a movie theater give me the right to fuck up your world if you bother me in a theater. Assholes.

P.S. I love you Mike Mignola.

God of Thunder

Fuck yeah.

Blue Beetle by Mike Norton

This’n’s a bit different. There’s an awesome comic artist by the name of Mike Norton whose work you can find at www.ihatemike.com. Mike and I both have a love for Blue Beetle, and while doing a random google search for Blue Beetle art, I stumbled upon this con-sketch Mike had done for someone:

I thought it was awesome. And then I got a real “bug” up my ass to “finish” the drawing. Using Adobe Illustrator, I did. By no means am I taking credit for Mike’s work, I just wanted to do something fun with a drawing of my favorite comic character of all-time, by one of my favorite comic artists.

Read Green Arrow/Black Canary. It’s good. Visit Mike’s blog for more arty goodness. Listen to the Crankcast for random hilarity.


Wanted to try a more traditional pen and ink illustrative style, with shadows and highlights, midtones, etc. Took a long time, especially for an impatient spastic like me. I did a lot of this while watching The Departed. Good film. Don’t know why it took so long to watch it. I even really liked Leonardo DiCaprio in it.


I drew the original about two years ago, and thought I had lost it. Since I’ve recently discovered it again, I decided to colorize it. Then I decided the Variant Hulks needed representing. Dunno why. It was a time killer. I’m so alone.

Li’l Avengers

A joke of a take on the whole “Young Avengers” thing. Done entirely in Illustrator. I enjoy how cute they turned out.

Jack Staff

There’s not a lot to say about this other than I have wanted to draw at least one picture of Jack Staff for the longest time, and every time I do I fuck it up, because it’s nowhere near the level of Paul Grist’s work. Jack Staff is my favorite comic currently published. Period. No argument. If had to drop all but one book, Jack Staff would be the one I keep. It’s really a shame this book doesn’t get a lot of buzz, it is consistently the best book on the stands. I really hope that it’s move to a long needed regular schedule ups the profile on it. Paul Grist does amazing work, and my little crapfest above does nothing to pay tribute to his talent. Go read.